On Courage…

Lou & Mel, My beautiful babies, you have no idea the courage it took to make you. One day you will know, but for now you sit in ignorant bliss soaking up the love we shower you with. The day we learned that we would not have children without serious medical intervention we were shattered. We put it away in…

The Birth of Louis Joseph and Melody Claire…

****Disclaimer***** Graphic birth, surgery and placenta photographs to follow****** I knew that we would have twins. The second they showed us those two little embryos, I knew that I would meet my son and daughter. I was riddled with fear throughout the pregnancy. I used my doppler fairly often and became a pro at finding their heartbeats early on. I…

Lazy Monday and Tuesday… and Wednesday…

Most people enjoy the weekends, they think it’s a time to relax and be with their families. For me though, it’s different. Friday-Sunday I have to wear deodorant and get out of bed because I’m usually spending time with my husband, going out to dinner or hanging out with his family. Which is a huge departure from my Monday-Thursday. Which…

M.I.A.

I have 7 drafted posts. From weeks 9-15 of my pregnancy. None of which are filled with anything meaningful or interesting. My brain has been a bit mushy and I’ve been in protection mode, trying to keep everything inside of me. So, here’s what I’ll say… Becoming pregnant after years of infertility is wonderful. It’s amazing. It’s the greatest thing…

The Death of My Father, The Birth of The Mother Inside of Me.

It’s been a crazy few months. So crazy in fact that I couldn’t manage to write anything, besides the story of my dad’s death. Which I think, for now, is just a little bit too much information for the internet. I feel totally disconnected from the world around me, which has made it increasingly hard to communicate feelings with any…

You can’t have it all…

Sometimes when I’m daydreaming I find myself saying “Well, I guess you just can’t have it all…” and since I’ve been spending a lot of time focusing on what I say to myself (part of the amazing HypnoFertility I’ve been doing) it seems to be a thought I constantly have to “delete” and replace with some weird thought like “I…

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